26 November 2023
I feel much better than I did last time. I told my neighbor that I dreamed we were having anal sex one night when we were hagning out, and he seemed really happy.
16 November 2023
It sucks to be in a spot where you have to choose between school and paying your bills. Also, some bitchface motherfucker no showed today because I asked him to PLEASE not call me "hun". I'm fuckin tired of being called "hun". It is profoundly unfair that I can't say shit to the clients, but that they feel entitled to talk to me any type of way.
5 November 2023
For the longest time, I smoked weed to contain the deep anger within me. It helped me make fun of the situation and think of something else. Now that I stopped, I find myself being angry about stuff that happened 15 years ago, but I still don't want to smoke, I'm comfortable with my decision. I just need to spend more time at the gym to expel my negative emotions.
2 November 2023
I have a friend, she is so nice and overly generous with everybody, but she struggles financially. Don't we all? But nowadays, she is talking to an older man online who says he is a dom, and he wants to take her out and have sex with her, but he only wants to pay for the meals, not her time, nor the sex. It sounds to me like he is just to cheap to pay for a pro and preys on a vulnerable woman. I told her that he should at least pay for the sex. I would like to offer to teach her the tricks of the trade, I think she could dig herself out of poverty, but a decision like that has to come from her.
29 October 2023
You guys maybe remember the guy who ghosted me about 2 years ago when I was still living in Montreal. Well, I fuckin saw him when I was walking down Bank steet. He can hide on his phone, but he can't when he's right in front of me on the sidewalk. I didn't look at him directly and kept walking. I really have nothing to say to him. I also have a visit in a luxury appartment by the canal tomorrow.
20 October 2023
Today I heard something I had never heard before; a guy said that he sees escorts because he seems to give boyfriend dick and that all the girls want to get serious with him right away, and that he found himself in tricky situations before. That blew my mind.
19 October 2023
It always make me sad when someone is not hard enough to do anal. I do what I can to help, but often, they're just too on edge.
17 October 2023
Sometimes I feel my butt has a mind of it's own. I can prepare it however, but ultimately, the butt decides how it goes.
10 October 2023
The electrician came today, and he was good looking! I think he had a speech impediment, which I found adorable. I looked at his hands and I saw no alliance. I have his number, now. Do you think he would be interested?
9 October 2023
I dreamed that I was having anal sex with my neighbor. I think I orgasmed, but I'm not sure if it was just in my dream or if I actually came. It's weird, I don't remember thiking my neighbor was hot, but it's not the first time I have erotic dreams about someone I don't feel like I lust over. I also made some cinnamon rice pudding again, this time it was vegan, and I put some clementine zest in it, and it is so amazing it tastes like Christmas.
30 September 2023
I did not get much studying done today, but at least I made money! It was such a nice day, on top of having sex and spending time outside, I made cinnamon rice pudding!